Assalamualaikum! hye all! so long I'm not
update my blog. lately I'm busy with my final examination. Lastly , it
over. Hope so to get a good result.. miss to write here so much. yeah,
for sure, since september , I didn't write here. So many things had
happened to me. Everything changes , people around me change...And I
don't know if I am change too. I have to changes. to be a good person
than before .. Actually , I am really tired of all this. I just want to
end this up. I just want the best for me, myself. This is not because I
am selfish. I just tired being nice to the people that treat me just
like 'football'. Sorry , but I don't need any part-time people in my
life. You're either with me or you're not. You just can't come and go as
you please. I just a normal people. I do have feeling. hey Dude , I
can act like I didn't see , I can act like I didn't hear , But I'm sure
that I CAN'T act that I don't feel ! please just let me go. your life so
complete right ? why can't you let me go through my life by myself ? I
don't need anyone in my life. It is enough my friends and family around
me. If you and her around me, it just make me stressed..and pain will
always beside me. until when I have to live like this ? before, I act
like I don't care but inside it hurts. so much. I can't stand it
anymore..
Firts time I know you , last year.. It was so awesome. you're funny,
nice to me and I like the way you are.. You always brighten up my day.
But , it just the past memory. Now , You've changed. not like I know you
before. Sincerely I don't like this change. But there is nothing I
can't do. that is your life, your choice. Futhermore, this year..you've
her beside right ? It's okay. I try to accept this. maybe It just a
while sweet memory to me. Thank you so much. How lucky I am to have
someone like you. althought it is just for a while. I hope you're happy
with your life. I've say goodbye to you few days ago. But it seems like
you can't say it back to me. Maybe I just have to slowly away from you
so you don't have to sad and feel guilty about this. I'm gonna be okay.
Don't worry about me. I just don't want to life like this always. I like
to pretend that I'm okay because I don't wanna annoy people with my
problems. Truly , I always want to back to the last december, 2010. Last
year was the best year in my life. I'll never forget it.. ;)
P/s : My title 11.11.11 totally unrelated with what I'm write about. I just hope that from now on (11.11.11) my life wouldn't s**k like before =)
