Hye all ! I rarely update my blog. I really don't have time. I've got a lot of extra class and also a lot of homework.. I'm too tired. I do not have enough time to rest now. I'm also tired with someone. tired of waiting, time of get hurt and tired to pretend that I'm okay. I'm not okay !! Yeah finally I tell the truth. Sincerely , My heart hurt so much. I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know why I still can forgave him when he ask for my apologize although he hurts me for a few times.
But now , I can see it cleary. He is not serious with me. He loves her so much. although she's unfaithful. He always take care of her feeling , take care of her so much. But with me instead.. He not fulfilled his promise to me, He always busy , do not have time for me but always have his time for her. He's changed. I know everything. But I'm just silent and get hurt slowly. I don't know why. and I don't know what's my fault. I don't know what I've do to him until he do this to me. He is always played with my heart. Maybe he doesn't know , until now I only have him in my heart. I've never had anyone else. But it's look like I'm the fool that doing something stupid. I have to stop doing all of this. I HAVE TO. After this I just want to focus on my study so I can get straight A's. InsyaAllah. If I can I want to go far away after this. oversea or something like that. I don't want keep stay here. I don't want to see his face everyday or I will getting hurt until my last breath. I hope You'll be happy ever after. I know you doesn't have feeling for me right. You just have her. So just go on. take care her and make her happy. I hope you'll happy. Don't worry about me I'm gonna be okay. Thank you for everything, forgive me.. Goodbye....
